mmm blah....
i'm like a trend, only spiff until something spiffer comes along. ;)
hey, my banner thingy says meganylicious, and if you flip your moniter upside down, it says remarkablyhot :)
...lol.
cailifornia must die!!
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Saturday, June 19, 2004
..and she moves on
this is officially my last blogdrive entry. i'm moving on to bigger and better things, *cough* livejournal. i feel stupid and trendy but i must admit, blogdrive has been stupid ever since i got my new computer. my live journal link is:
http://www.livejournal.com/users/thisisntmegan
i'm not gonna take down my blogdrive, so in case your looking for a bit of megan-history or perhaps megan-amusement, this is the right place.
goodbye all! i hope you come back for megan v.2>livejournal
:)
Posted at 11:38 pm by eekAmouse
spot of tea?
i am a horrible person. i have been neglecting my poor blog.
yesterday we went to the water slides at larry and penny [me, chelsea, kaylynn, nikki, mark, chris[tian].
it was oodles of fun. chelsea and mark need to go out.
dont you hate it when you think your over someone, then you see them, and you fall for them 10 times harder than you did before? my heart is being eaten away at. and it sucks even more when your best friend likes them, and you want them to go out. you really, really want them to go out.
and then nothing seems real anymore, except the feeling it gives you inside. the one where your like..alone.
its all so weird- the house got sold 2 days ago, dad lives in cali now in the new house, my celly is a cali area code, i know when the movers are coming. but still..i'm not feeling it. its gonna hit me though. on like the first day of school. when i'm not where i should be.
and then theres this whole kool aid thing. theres only 1 person i've wanted since like..march now. and its not working. for a while i thought maybe i had a chance, but i dont cuz i never have a chance cuz who'd wanna go out with me, right? its always everyone else who gets the boyfriends, not me. i'm just the stupid odd one out whos always happy but never really..
happy.
i hate this. i hate all of it. i really wish it would just..
stop
..or something
i want him, and i want to be happy, and i want chelsea and mark to go out.
i'm a better actress than you all thought
Posted at 12:51 am by eekAmouse
Monday, June 14, 2004
surveys rock 5 socks!
Survey~
+Word association+
Blue:: you
Camera:: want my pics!
Boy:: m.....
Pretty:: not me
Pants:: gang related
Music:: pale people -maria mena
God:: anywhere here?
Sweater:: that is SO random its 90 outside!
Live Journal:: BLOGDRIVE
MTV:: sucks
+Currents+
current clothing: gangrelated pjs, white shirt
current mood: bored -_-
current taste:: just woke up taste
current hair: just woke up hair
current annoyance: m....i keep getting pissed off for no reason!
current smell: house
current refreshment: ? none ?
current worry: everyone hates me.
current crush: ...m....
current music: pale people
current wish: happy..
current lyric in your head: "i'm surrounded by pale people...think i'm fading..too.."
current regret: that i'm stupid
current desktop picture: dali painting
current disappointment: ....to many to list
current amusement: none
current IM/person you're talking to: no one
current love: cookies
current obsession: .....no comment
current avoidance: not really any...wait...c....m...together..
current thing or things on your wall: surfboard, bulletin board, lights, poster, cat, monkeys....
+People+
close friends: chelsea teg kaylynn alex
love interest: ..i've..never..been in love
person you talk to when you're down: i..dont talk to people
person you try to avoid: certain ppl at certain times..
person you haven't spoken to in a long time: erin
person that makes you mad: i dunno..certain ppl at certain times..stalkers..*cough*
someone you think is stupid: me
a celebrity you wish u could meet: i dunno..taking back sunday i guess
Who hates you: mark really i think he does
teacher that pisses u off: ha no more school
person that pisses u off the most: CERTAIN PPL AT CERTAIN TIMES! and martha stewart..
person u wish u could spend more time with: ..my friends..and..grr
+ Basics +
Are you emotional :: not outwardly
Do songs make you cry? :: they can not everytime tho
What about movies :: and?
What emotion do you usually:: artificial happy?
+ Sadness +
What does it take to make you cry your heart out :: realizing the i can never have what i want, and that i swear the universe is against me and that i'll never be happy
How many times have you done that :: no comment
Where do you cry :: ..room
Do you hate crying :: dunno
Do you like it when others cry : no
Do you think tears make eyes look pretty :: i dunno..i like happy eyes
How else do you express sadness :: uh..
Are you sad all the time :: starting to seem that way
+ Anger +
What does it take to make you mad :: lately anything
What do you do when you're angry :: yell at people
How long does it take you to calm down :: depends
Do you freak out when others are angry :: no
Has anyone ever recommended anger management to you :: no
What's the worst thing someone's done to make you mad :: "guess what megan, we're moving to the other side of the country in 3 months!"
Do you anger people :: probably
+ Joy +
How often are you happy :: lately i couldn't tell ya.
What makes you happy :: friends
What do you do when you're happy :: smile?
Do happy people make you mad :: sometimes
Ever been so happy you were dying to tell everyone :: probably
Ever been so happy you cried :: probably
Do you smile a lot :: probably
Kiss people a lot:: nope
Who really makes you happy :: chelsea and mark
you like doing things for people when you're happy :: sure
+ Fear +
What do you do when you're scared :: sit
What scares you :: people
Do you like scaring people :: in what way?
Do you like the thrill of being frightened :: not really
Does fear accompany anger in your case :: not really
Ever been so scared you couldn't breathe :: yea
What do you do to calm your nerves :: sit breathe
+ The strongest emotion +
What song never fails to get your strongest emotions going :: konstantine
Person :: uh..i dunno
Thing :: ? things HAVE emotions
Sight :: people making out, no really it is
Sound :: ?
Food :: cookies
Scent:: uh your mom
+ What do you do +
When the emotions suck :: sit
When the emotion rocks :: smile
When there's no emotion :: sit
+ Who +
Cheers you up more than anyone else :: chelsea bridget +mark
Scares you more than anyone else:: kaylynn and bridgte
Makes you think about your emotions more than anyone else :: kaylynn + bridget
ok i suppose thats it...toodles..
Posted at 12:26 pm by eekAmouse
Monday, June 07, 2004
check, please.
oh god.
a lot has happened. the funny part is, i'm sworn to uber secrecy. oh well. anyway. i didn't go to school today, mainly cuz i didn't sleep at all sunday nite..yayyyy 2 days left of school and they dont count cuz we have finals oh goody! wellons' partay is weds right after school and we're playing [[CHILD'S PLAY ALL THE WAY, BIOTCHHHH!]]. its gonna be off zee heezy. :) my new computer is uber fast and i finally finally finally figured out how to use my cd burner. ack. i think i'ma go to bed now or watch TV even tho it doesn't matter cuz finals are easy i could stay up all nite..but not sleeping for 2 days straight makes ya wanna.
caboodles
~<meganylicious>~*
that one!
'Through twilight, darkness and moonrise
My scarlet tears will run
As stolen blood and whispered love
Of fantasies undone'
Countess swathed in ebony
And snow-white balletic grace
Rouge-filmed lips procure the wish
For lust and her disgrace
Dusk and her embrace
We shall flit through the shadows
Like a dream of (were)wolves in the snow
Under deadly nightshade
Still warmed with the kill's afterglow
Beneath the stars thy flesh bedevils me
(Beneath the stars taste the death in me)
Bequeath to me thy fiery kiss
To sever thin mortality
[[-C-O-F-]]
Posted at 09:25 pm by eekAmouse
Thursday, June 03, 2004
woo hoo i found one!
THREE THINGS YOU ARE SCARED OF:
01 | forgetting.
02 | being alone.
03 | being forgotten.
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THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
01 | kristina.
02 | caitlin.
03 | chelsea.
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THREE THINGS I LOVE:
01 | cookies.
02 | my friends.
03 | internet.
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THREE THINGS I HATE:
01 | kevin bender.
02 | mean people.
03 | stupid people.
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THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
01 | anything.
02 | how my computer just kinda died. i knew it was coming, but still.
03 | me.
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THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:
01 | phone.
02 | 3 speakers.
03 | oscar-looking type award [?]
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THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
01 | typing.
02 | listening to konstantine.
03 | listening to tv.
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THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
01 | skydive.
02 | fall in love.
03 | drop acid.
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THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
01 | science worksheets.
02 | type.
03 | be a syco therapist type person thingy.
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THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
01 | polite.
02 | word.
03 | shells.
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THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO:
01 | anything right.
02 | make my mom happy.
03 | make anyone happy.
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THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
01 | spice girls.
02 | snow patrol.
03 | incubus.
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THREE THINGS I DON'T THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO EVER:
01 | fefe dobson.
02 | country music.
03 | hicks.
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THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
01 | i'm sorry.
02 | what the fruit?
03 | fine whatever.
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THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
01 | cookies.
02 | chik-fil-a.
03 | rice.
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THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
01 | water.
02 | bawls [sort of]
03 | water.
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THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A LITTLE KID:
01 | snorks.
02 | smurfs.
03 | rugrats.
Posted at 09:19 pm by eekAmouse
oh goody a new copmuter!
our computer broke tuesday morning :(. my history project and science project got lost so i'm gonna fail the finals. the good news is, we got a new computer today. oh goody! but..i'm still not doing my projects. i did finish my project on columbine tho, yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy........
i wanna do a survey...i'm going into withdrawl..
toodles
-----meganylicious------
This is the straw, final straw in the
Roof of my mouth as I lie to you
Just because I'm sorry doesn't mean
I didn't enjoy it at the time
You're the only thing that I love
It scares me more every day
On my knees I think clearer
Goodness I saw it coming
Or at least I'll claim I did
But in truth I'm lost for words
What have I done it's too late for that
What have become truth is nothing yet
A simple mistake starts the hardest time
I promise I'll do anything you ask...this time
[snowpatrol]
Posted at 08:49 pm by eekAmouse
Saturday, May 29, 2004
alllll byyyy myyyselffffffffffff.....dont wanna be...allll byyyy myyyselfff..
wee!
my parentals went to cali till wednesday, so i'm home alone till then. yay fun!
thursday nite twas prom, and it was really fun. i'm really proud. fever for the flava has been like my jam forever, and my goal was to get the whole school hooked on it this year..i already got my drama class hooked on it, but if you knew my school and that song you'd know the challenge. me and caitlin took it to prom with us, and the guy played it, and instead of everyone going "boo!" etc, they started a mosh pit..it was so funny. i was extremely proud. then we got them to play cuz i'm ur lady and you are my man, and everyone was slow dancing to it. prom was fun
then friday morning we woke up atrociously early and got on a bus to go to bush gardens, which sucked cuz i hate bush gardens. at least i got to ride the montu tho, that was awesomely fun cuz i love that ride and i got erin hooked. anyway
now i'm back at home and a few people is coming over tonite cuz my parentals is gone,and at 9 30 paige gets raped on degrassi! that episode is like a year old but i'm so excited cuz i miss it EVERY time it comes on. so yea. oh goody.
i'm funna go work on my projects now.
7 days! woo!!! 7 days and i'll be a ...high people school student. awwwwwwww nooooooo! :'(
ugg.
tata
Posted at 03:58 pm by eekAmouse
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
oh no! stripper megan to the rescue!
in honor of prom i'll write this entry in porn*star pink.
i was at bridgets and she was trying on all her prom stuff and she looks so pretty, and i was like hmm i should try on my stuff. i have this really pretty blue dress that cuts down in the front like a bikini, and its kinda short...i have a feather boa and tall clear silver strappy shoes to go with it..
well i was trying it on, and today i have my hair up in the stripper-high-pony-tail thingy, and bridget was there and as i'm fastening my shoes and jewlery and stuff to see how it look she goes "omg megan you look like a stripper!"
i'm like oh no..cuz you see ALL the guys in the gifted classes on our team at school are constantly discussing my ass and tits, and according to bridget all the guys were discussing my ass and decided that i have the best one out of all the chicks in the gifted classes or something. :-/...i dont know how i feel about this, i mean i LOVE my butt and all but.....people constantly discussing it behind my back? people that hated me in elementary school and 6th and 7th grade? people that constantly make fun of me?
so of course at prom. i'm going to look like a stripper. i even have a feather boa i mean COME ON. oooooommmmmgggggg........oh well. hopefully more people there will be pulling off the stripper look to
peace till lata (be back after prom/bush gardens)
--meganylicious
Posted at 06:53 pm by eekAmouse
yayyyyyy!!!!!!!! stripper boots!
oh goody!
today i got the red pleather knee high stripper boots that i've wnated FOREVER. i also realized that yesterday was the 7 month anniversary of my blog. oh goody!
tomroro is our 8th grade prom thingy..its gonna be cool i guess. me alex teg etc are going to ihop after, and i think we is picking up chelsea on the way even tho she doens't go to our school...shh..
anyway
i'ma go run around in my red stripper boots :) and work on my projects etc etc...
caboodles!
~raa
oh yea! we got year books and theres a quite amusing picture of me preparing for my torgete in the dance we did for the xmas show...heh....
Posted at 03:56 pm by eekAmouse
Tuesday, May 25, 2004
omg language arts award i think not!!!
i'm pissed, but i dont want to talk about it, so i'll just post a cencored conversation that explains most. raa!!!!!!!!
taketheseeyes169: how was the award show eg
taketheseeyes169: meg*
Look a Cup Cake: stupid.
Look a Cup Cake: i got a fucking language arts award. -------- and BENDER got the drama awards. i didn't get the science award either. i got the FUCKING LANGUAGE ARTS AWARD. i have done NOTHING special in that class except get a 6 on the fcat writing thing. thats it. NOTHING special. there is nothing special about that award. this further proves that i'm really not going to be an actress when i grow up, not even close. its a good thing i didn't get into new world, they'd have kicked me out cuz if i had gotten in it would have been a mistake. i suck at the one thing thats made me happy and i've wanted to do my whole life, and the other thing i'm even a little good at [science] i must suck at to.
taketheseeyes169: ....wow im sorry
Look a Cup Cake: my language arts teacher HATES me. she must have given me that award as some kind of joke. i havn't even had an A in that class ALL YEAR. shes constantly telling me how i dont do any of my work right. and she gives me a fucking language arts award.
Look a Cup Cake: >:o
taketheseeyes169: meg ur cursing an awful lot lately
Look a Cup Cake: and why the hell did --------- get a drama award? no offense but s/he SUCKS. i didn't know i was that bad if s/he got an award and i didn't. and bender no body likes bender and he got all of these team awards and smart people awards. HES STUPID. if anyone did a group project with him they would see that. he just tries to fucking hard and his mom is on the fucking ptsa. NO BODY LIKES HIM. and he SUCKS at EVERYTHING.
Look a Cup Cake: ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i'm going to explode
Look a Cup Cake: >:o
taketheseeyes169: u r exploding but im ok wit it because thats wat im here for
Look a Cup Cake: and it doesn't help that my grampa is in the fucking hospital dying, and that i only have -#- friends that even put up with me exploding at them. thank you steven. i'm stopping now though because i know i'm annoying you.
taketheseeyes169: no ur not
taketheseeyes169: ur not annoying me
Look a Cup Cake: but yea see i'm a loser, because i'm pissed for getting an english award, and i love my grampa and i care that hes dying. and i care that -------- and bender got the only award that would have meant anything to me at all.
Look a Cup Cake: and i care that my dad left a week earlier than he was supposed to, and i wont get to see him for like 4 months.
taketheseeyes169: .....im sorry meg.....4 years is alot better then a life time...and that hurts more....u'll see ur dad again dont worry
Look a Cup Cake: 4 months not 4 years but yes i know i'm sorry you havn't seen your dad your whole life..
taketheseeyes169: ...it sok im gettin used to it(sorta) but u'll see him dont worry
Look a Cup Cake: and i know i'll see him again...its just the principle of the thing.....grrrrrrr nvm now i sound like a fucking spoiled ass prick. i'm done.
Look a Cup Cake: the end.
Look a Cup Cake: so whats up?
who wants a language arts award anyway? WHATEVER FUCK THE WORLD NO MORE COMPLAINING FOR MEGAN NO SIR-EE.
and cut-
Posted at 09:11 pm by eekAmouse
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